Getting ready to compete

I have been really busy time lately, and haven't made the commitment to blog about my adventures. Overall the main focus on my skating in the last 6 weeks has been on my program for the upcoming Adult Regional competition next week. I'm skating to a selection from "Mario takes a walk" by Jesse Cook. Armin Mahbanoozadeh has used it in his short program this season and I really like it. Unfortunately, I can't skate as well as he can, but I think my coach and I have done a decent job of drafting a nice program to it that showcases my better elements. It has taken us a long time to fully choreograph it (and it's still not 100% complete) but it's more complex than the programs she usually puts together (almost 1 minute longer, but fewer elements, so it's got lots of transitions, etc.) Some days I do a decent run-through and other days it's a big ol' mess, but the good run-throughs get better each time, so that's positive. Right now the biggest issues are working out the timing of some of the sections and sloppiness in transitions, along with getting 2 full rotations in the camel position for my combination spin. My sit-spin is better than ever by a mile. But I'm a little spooked that there is so little prep time left. My dress is almost finished, I'm just sewing on the last bit of trim around the hem.

While my good days on the ice are getting better and better, the bad ones still occasionally happen and are starting to worry me a bit. Lately I have been getting chicken about jumps and getting sloppy when I try to do them with more speed. The most irritating situation is with my flip; sometimes I just get a mental block and simply can't execute the jump. This especially bothers me because it used to be my favourite jump, just pure fun; then we tried to improve it and now I think about it too much and try to bail out if I don't set it up just so. I've had a couple of frustrating practices as well where nothing seemed to go right and then the next day I have a wonderful skate so it can be really baffling. Yesterday I had a crappy skate, just a big waste of time. So this morning before I got on the ice I practiced my jumps in my shoes, in the lobby, and that gave me a lot of confidence. Once it was time to warm up my jumps on the ice they were stronger and better than they usually are at first. I was kicking out further in my waltz jump, more confident in my Salchow and loop, and didn't have any aborted flips. I was better about not pre-rotating my shoulders. I didn't give up on any of my jumps. This was great for my confidence so I plan to warm up my jumps off the ice before I skate from now on. Especially at competition next week. Yikes! After my skate yesterday morning I was considering withdrawing. But after a great skate today with 2 acceptable run-throughs, I feel more optimistic about it. Skating can be so weird.

Aside from my program, I have been dabbling a bit in Skating Skills for 30 minutes a week, just one lesson a week. For the Jr. Bronze level there are again three patterns to learn:

• "Threes & Power Mohawks"
• "Power Circles 1"
• "Change Threes"

The moves at this level that were not in the Preliminary level are backward 3-turns, swing rolls, changes of edge, and tango stops (T-stops, foot in front, on outside edge). Also speed, power and control are more important.

For the first pattern I mostly struggle with checking the backward 3-turns and getting the right timing on the Mohawk/Choctaw section, but I can get through it without any major mistakes. The third pattern is my favourite, the swing roll/edge change combination is fun and I can really lean into my edges. Aside from the tango stop, it's my best of the lot. My worst is the power circles pattern. It's not complicated, just a pattern of crossovers around the hockey circles. But, it's done at full speed and the circles are tight enough that I am really deep on my edges so they are difficult to control. Last week I had a huge wipeout when I leaned too far into my backward crossovers, fell onto my hip and slid full speed across the ice. There was nothing I could do but put my feet out to let them hit the boards first and hope that the collision wouldn't damage my blades. Everyone came rushing to see if I was ok! It was a bit unnerving not to mention that it was within 5 minutes of stepping on the ice and not really the way I wanted to start the day. This morning's practice was a bit better, I didn't wipe out but I made my circles too large and couldn't get all the way around them in the prescribed number of steps. We didn't even complete a full run-through and it's been a while now since I have done one. Fortunately, I'm not too concerned about these at the moment because I'm distracted by my competition. It's definitely going to take longer before I'm able to test at this level than it did for the previous level. But if I can say it without sounding stuck-up, I am better at the other 2 patterns than the other 2 girls in my lesson, heheh. And I think they get 2 lessons a week!

In other news my foot is feeling better and ballet class has been a little bit more fun lately. It's not exactly what I expected but to practice good posture for 75 minutes once a week is not such a bad thing really.

Well, time to sign off for now. I hope to go back to more regular posting soon.

Good weekend ice and stupid toe loops

Another multiple day post, yeesh.

On Saturday my regular session was cancelled for a ringette tournament. I paid extra money to go to the national training rink and it was wonderful. I skated for over 2 hours with only about 4 other skaters on the ice! I tried to work on just about everything but I definitely practice camel spins and combination spins the most. I had some fun with spin variations that travelled wildly but were fun. When I left I had blisters on both heels but it was totally worth it!

On Sunday I made it to a women's drop-in hockey scrimmage at yet another rink. It was pretty fun and I got in some good practice. It would be nice to get in some skills practice but there aren't any ice times for that that suit my schedule. Fun to meet some new friends too!

On Monday I had one of those throwaway practices where things just didn't go well. The ice felt crowded after the empty session I had on Saturday, and it was hard to even find enough space for a spin or a waltz jump. My blades felt like they were wobbling and my boots were too tight or loose no matter how many times I adjusted them. In my lesson I got flustered attempting my stupid toe loops and was downgraded to practicing them from a standstill again. Actually even through I was frustrated it was a bit funny when my coach asked me "Are you practicing these?" LOL!

Also I got a bit confused with the loop. It's a four step process: bend the knee, pivot on the ball of the foot/blade, push onto the toepick, pivot more and jump. I was combining everything into a big scratchy mess instead. I don't know how I will be able to do all that in the actual splitsecond of the real jump, blah. The real demoralizing moment happened when my coach said "I want you to get up to Lutz feeling all the jumps as being a natural motion. Then we will go back and do another round of fixing stuff." Gah, like we're not already doing them properly? Yuck.

At one point my coach made yet another reference to double jumps and it's making me wonder what I really want to do with my skating. I don't really like jumps and I don't learn them quickly. I'm afraid of falling and have zero kinesthetic awareness for skating. Even good single jumps don't seem to be in the cards for me, so where do I want to go with all this? I mentioned the 'artistic' category of competition to my coach once and she was not too jazzed about it but I wonder if it might be a better fit for me. Seriously persuing ice dance is out of the question not only because of the difficulty of finding an adult male partner but also because I'm ticklish. So while I'm going to continue with freestyle for a while yet I'm going to try to really focus on my basic skating skills and maybe try to make it onto the adult synchro team next year. With enough practice there's no reason why I shouldn't be able to do all the skating skills levels and there's nothing more fun to me than actual skating to music.

The group lesson on Monday was also a bit of a wash, partly because we spend probably less than half of the time actually practicing the skills. The other part was that the coach would show us something complicated very quickly and then expect us all to know it. It's probably a technique for teaching kids but I don't appreciate being talked down to so it can be a bit annoying at times. On the bright side, I worked up the courage to ask the other coach to list the steps again and she spent a couple of minutes teaching me the steps and correcting me, which was very nice of her. Then instead of getting in line to practice the sequence I just did it by myself, to the side out of the way and nobody seemed to mind. I like this better than waiting in line to practice it down the ice and then running over little girls. I have tried to go ahead of them but they all bunch up in front of me! Next season I will probably skip the group lessons. The ice time is better spent when I can dictate my own practice routine.

Waltzing Threes

I had a better session today. We began with something fun and new! My coach taught me a dance-like pattern that is on the first skating skills test. It is a clockwise pattern of three-turns, crossovers and steps that covers the whole ice surface, called 'Waltzing Threes'. It is actually quite fun and I am looking forward to practicing it again. My coach is going to photocopy the pattern for me, because I am still a bit fuzzy about how the pattern goes in the corners of the rink. Strangely, I have not been able to find information about the Skate Canada test content online, even though all of the USFSA test content is available online. So I will have to rely on my coach for now. I hate not being able to find things online!

After the skills session was the CanSkate class (learn to skate). This time I did not have to teach by myself, whew! I helped out with organizing the kids and mostly shouting gems of wisdom like 'Arms up! Feet together!'.

In the group lesson we practiced some weird pattern of edge changes I had never done before. I did not really get to see what the whole thing was, and I was so far back in the line that by the time it was my turn, the other students were doing the pattern back toward me and we had to swerve out of eachothers' way. So that was a bit of an annoying waste of time. After that we switched to more useful drills in a better format. I like the group lessons, but sometimes we try to practice so many moves that I only get to do each one once or twice. I will have to practice them more on my own.

We had another group spin lesson too and my backspin seems to be progressing. My coach doesn't like my free leg position, but this is an improvement over not being able to do the spin at all. Then, she broke my sit-spin!! I have a toe-out, heel-in, foot-on-an-angle position with my free foot in my sit-spin that my coach does not like. Now when I try to have the foot vertical (but pointed), I get even more unbalanced in the spin and travel/fall out. So I am a bit irked that now I can't do a sit-spin. I need to find out which is the more serious offense, an "ugly" foot position or gross traveling. In my opinion traveling is worse but I will ask my coach's opinion. I know that I also don't squat down enough but she seems willing to let that slide for the moment. That is a relief, because I have knee problems and it will take some time at physiotherapy to improve my range of motion in the knee.

Then it was time for freeskate and I spent twenty minutes on my camel spin. I don't normally spend so much time on it but it was taking forever to really warm up. I did spirals and stretches, but it took quite some time to get comfortable. I did manage several respectable if slow camels, but the rest of them all failed in a fall/lean to the inside. I know I need to lean to the outside of my supporting foot, but somehow it's just not translating into actually doing it.

During this experience I began to get frustrated, again. It is hard when you have a good skate (like I did last Saturday) and then the next time or two, or seven, you suck. It is easy to be fooled into thinking that each practice, you will do the same or better as the last. This is completely untrue in figure skating, at least in my experiences both as a child and as an adult. Memories of frustration and exasperation started coming back to me. This became worse as I discovered my broken sit-spin when trying to fix the free foot position, and then when an elite skater commandeered the ice. I had to keep forcing myself to continue for the rest of the session.

I would like to bitch and moan about this elite skater for a moment. Today he spent about twenty minutes working on a triple toe loop. This meant that he would be skating at full blast across two-thirds of the rink surface. At one point I realized that most of us were crammed into the other third of the ice, working on our elements at low speed because there was no room. Then, when he practiced his program I made sure to stand at the boards when he came by, but he still skated WITHIN ONE INCH OF ME. Sorry, I cannot move back any more! It is not reasonable to expect me to sit in the penalty box for the entire duration of his program when I have paid for the ice too. Then, to make it even more disgusting, his run-through mostly featured popped jumps that were poorly landed, so it felt even more so like wasted time. I wish this fellow was in a different session! Our session is labelled Intermediate/Senior so I suppose he is entitled to attend it. However it is also the session with all the new freeskaters like me working on bad waltz jumps and shaky backspins. The next most elite skater is powerful and has an axel and is working on doubles, but I have not had any problems with her. Probably there is nothing I can do about it though, and in general all the other time slots I am in are full of the same level skaters so I had not even had a single problem until today.

Anyway, speaking of bad waltz jumps, I diligently practiced my waltz jump prep over and over today. I even did the jump this time, but I have lost the sense of joy in it that I briefly experienced. As soon as I jump, I know that my step forward was not executed correctly, so that kind of takes the fun out of it. So mostly I focused on the prep and the step. Through repetition, each piece of technique is slowly absorbed so it is very important. I have the backward push, feet together, and change of arms down pat. Now for the rest of it!

I spent a bit of time working on my other jumps, but I am not feeling too jazzed about them right now. I would rather do them while my coach is watching because I know they are flawed. Since my coach fixed my swinging Salchow free leg, the jump feels like a wretched little thing and I'm not much inclined to inflict its ugliness on whomever might be watching me. However it is better than my loop which has been reduced to a weak hop when I try it with the new entrance. From a three-turn, I have more confidence and the jump is stronger (but probably still flawed). At least it is a jump though! Ah well I will never be a big jumper so I don't feel too bad about slacking off on them.

This week there was a spirals competition, which I am not signed up for (i.e. haven't payed for the time slot). I had entertained the idea of doing it anyway, for the practice, but by the end of the morning my confidence was not that high and I just wanted to go home. When I walked by on my way out of the building I saw them practicing front catch-foot spirals, and was glad of my decision. This ugly spiral is new since I was a child skater, so I never learned how to do it. But I know from yoga classes that I am not flexible enough to do even a passable Level 1 version of it. No need to advertise this in front of a group of 12-year old Gumbies!

This afternoon I spent two hours stretching.

Disappointment

After looking forward to skating this morning so much, I was thoroughly disappointed today with a wasted lesson and crappy skating. The whole 20 minute lesson was spent on the step forward into the waltz jump. At first this was ok, then I started getting frustrated because my coach kept offering useless tidbits like "You look awkward". Well, duh. That's not helpful! Then I started analyzing it in my typical fashion and was also getting frustrated that maybe I'm just too old, inflexible, and injured to be any good at this sport. This attitude did not help.

After the lesson I worked dutifully on the waltz jump prep for another ten minutes or so and then tried some spins. I did not even feel like doing other jumps. All my spins were crap except for the back sit, surprisingly. They traveled pitifully and involved much toe-pick scratching and loss of balance.

This is not the first time I have experienced this type of two steps forward, one step back progress. Figure skating is filled with it and I had much frustration in skating as a child. I tried not to let this one incident get me down, after all I have been having many good sessions lately so one bad one is no big deal. But I still have a sense of wasted time and money, and general disgust with myself. What was extra lame about the whole morning was that I did not have fun, which is the whole point of doing this.

The session was not an entire writeoff because I actually made progress with my figures, of all things. I found this great reference on the web that describes many aspects of skating, including figures:

http://www.worldfigureskating.net/index.php

Since I will basically have to teach myself, I read through the instructions for the forward outside eight and even printed them out and brought them with me in case I needed to check them. I practiced about six eights and then checked out my tracings. I measured them and found them woefully asymmetric. On the start of the circle, I go out too far so my circles are more oval-shaped and off-centre. You are not supposed to use markings but I currently need them as a learning tool, so I measured and marked out the proper locations of the quarter-circles. Then I tried to skate the figure again, hitting all the marks. This felt strange, like I was tracing circles with big bites out of them. But the resulting traces looked more round and smooth. Following the instructions from the website immediately helped my edges be more secure and less wobbly. So I feel very good about this progress, even if it is for a skill I cannot test. In a way, I feel like I am keeping alive a dying art.

In order to make better use of my lesson time I am going to make some rules for myself, which I will try to obey.

• No babbling or extensive analysis
• Try to just do what she says and see what happens
  
• No complaining about being too old, inflexible, etc.
• Don't explain why you did it wrong unless it is useful
• Pay 100% attention

After thinking about my lesson for quite a while today I had one realization that part of my frustration probably stems from a sense of 'already knowing this stuff' and wanting to just skate around and do my thing. Unfortunately what I already know is very technically flawed, and it needs a lot of correcting before I can just skate around, let alone have a program, test, and compete. Part of me is thinking 'I was in two competitions! I could do a lutz! I don't want to do waltz jumps'. This thinking is counterproductive because while I want to have fun, I want to be a good skater, not just someone who competes at the lowest level with crappy waltz jumps that never get any better.

I spent some time cruising the web for other adult skating blogs and found them very inspiring. I should figure out how to make links for them on my sidebar. By midday I was anxious to get back on the ice and just keep practicing. Furthermore I cleverly chalked up my overall terrible skating after the lesson to dull blades, which is not entirely impossible. I have skated at least 25 hours on this sharpening and I have heard that sharpening is recommended about every 20 hours. So I contrived to escape work early, and drove like a maniac to the skating store and get them done just before closing :) The blades look much better now and I hope they bring me a more pleasant skate tomorrow. Tomorrow is my 3-hour epic morning and I am looking forward to it now!